“If you do not get your Diabetes and health in general under control, you will be facing amputations with in five years, and possible death within ten years.” It was 2005 and I was 30 years old, married with a 2yr old son. That was from a letter my doctor sent me after a yearly physical. I weighed 300 pounds (give or take 10lbs). Even though I was on pills and insulin injections everyday my Type II Diabetes was completely out of control. I did some research and asked my doc if I was good candidate for gastric bypass surgery. Embarrassingly fast, she said yes. In January of 2006 I had the surgery. The next two years or so were a kind of bliss. I lost weight. I discovered clothes and mirrors and exercise that felt good. I had a baby girl.
LIFE FALLS APART SOMETIMES
Then….life happened. The honeymoon was most definitely over. Issues that had been buried under fat for years started to surface. My marriage suffered, started to deteriorate and ultimately imploded. While my marriage was in its death throes, the kids and I spent the summer with my family about an hour away. During that summer of uncertainty and depression, my Dad (who I was always close with) died abruptly of a heart attack. You know those scenes in the movies where the person grabs their left upper arm and collapses and a minute later they are just ….. gone? That’s what happened to my Dad. It was a complete shock. Then my marriage died (I had loved him since I was 14yrs old) as well and we had to learn how to create a divorce that is friendly for the kids sake.
It’s was right around that time that the weight started to come back on. Just a bit at a time and in total now about 60 pounds of it.
That is why I’m here, writing about all of my embarrassing journey and uplifting moments. Because there are a lot of us out there that life is happening to that may be putting some weight back on. I spent a long time feeling shameful and guilty for it. No more. I don’t think any of us should, so here I am, hoping to help us get through it together.
THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO US!
That’s not all I’m about though. You’ll hopefully find that there is more to me- to all of us really- than the weight issues that have followed me most of my life.
For example, I HATE spiders. And math of any kind. Smurfs are creepy and way to …. blue. I LOVE anything Harry Potter, Star Wars or Lord of the Rings. I am an avid reader. Cooking show of any kind an addiction and my happy place is Otter Cliffs, Acadia National Park in Maine. I love, love, love my part time job tutoring for Anatomy and Physiology lab. I belong to a Toastmasters Club where I regularly hone my public speaking skill. And of course, I love to write. My first book should be published with in the year.
I have two children. A boy who is 15 and a girl who is 10. They keep me on my toes and keep me searching for ways to get them to eat greens of any kind. She is a “fashiony”, lover of all things sparkly, dancer. He is a gamer and while she tries to teach me how to dress, he tries to teach me about Marvel vs DC universes (I’m personally in favor of anything with Cap’n America, IronMan or Thor in it…). I think I’m a fast learner in both cases.
I started this blog so that I could share what I have learned in the past 11 years post op gastric bypass surgery. I am still on the health journey and plan to devote some of this blog to learning how to cook healthier – which for me is mostly (I won’t give up cheese just yet!) vegan. I can’t wait to hear from you all because I’m sure we have a lot to teach each other. I firmly believe that only by talking about the “F” word – fat! – without shying away from how uncomfortable it makes us, can we bring it to the light. And only when we bring it into the light can we expose it and ultimately take away its power to control us. So please, join me in the conversation. We have a lot to say to the world, don’t we?